RACHAELSEE

2010-01-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

should i switch permanently to tumblr?

2009-12-30T22:17:00.002+08:00

2009 is ending. thank god.
i cant wait for 2010 to come. its going to be a better year, the work load is going to be worst, and i get to go to london at the end of the year! how awesome is that gonna be? cant wait for school to start. cant stand being cooped up at home.

i love you,
you know that right?

2009-12-29T19:18:00.004+08:00

so.. i haven been blogging much lately, nothing really to blog about.
2009 is ending really soon. and 2010 is going to be awesome! except for the money saving parts. but it would be worth it when me and hanna go to LONDON! woohoo!
omg. when we were planning to go there i was frecking excited that i couldnt really get to sleep at all la! cant wait to go in dec 2010. so i have to start saving like most of my allowance and have to work alot! haha. 4.5k by the end of novemeber. faint! it would be like a great achievement if i ever save it up to that amount los. my dad was like go and get 5 As, and he will pay 2k for my trip! bloody hell! only flynn can get 5 As los. and next sem classes are all going to be research and stuff. omg. major boring! but i must at least try get get it then maybe i will get extra shopping money! hahaha!
my holidays is ending soon, in about 2 more weeks! omg. cant wait for school to reopen. i cant stand sitting at home all day and doing nothing! going to make sure i find a job during my next 2 month holiday los. that 2 months are very important!

tomorrow will be dropping by school with dasiree cause she need submit her extra works. then after that go lavender to service the stupid papago! saturday going to find jobs with hanna. hope have los. just hope cotton on calls me and her for interview! anyways. shall stop crapping. heh.

2009-12-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

But for now, let me say - Without hope or agenda - Just because it’s Christmas - And at Christmas you tell the truth - To me, you are perfect - And my wasted heart will love you.

2009-12-23T00:59:00.005+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS IN 2 DAYS~
cant wait. all the foood i am going to have! drool!
saturday is going to be a good and happy day! haha!
watching alvin and the chipmunks 2 with Qz and marcus! :):):):):) cant wait!

today went to ECP! to cycle with hanna! rented the bicycles for 3 hours, half and hour got taken up by the rain! stupid. cycled up and down ecp a few times. till our butts were aching from sitting on the hard seat! day was super funny and fun! hanna fell cause she decided to use a short cut on the grass instead on sticking on the pavement! super funny. haha. she caught it on video too!
after that went to eat udders. i think we both were too full on polar puff. wasted all the yummy icecream :(
trained home after that. super tired now. shall go sleep early! tomorrow gonna be a lazy day. gonna stay home the whole day and pack my room! alrights. shall stop here. goodnight!

i have thought it thru last night.
i am giving up hope.
but that doesn't mean i am moving on.

2009-12-21T14:49:00.007+08:00

I AM BACK!
well, nothing much to blog about my cruise trip. shall summarize it!
CRUISE WAS AH-MAZING! it was HUGE! THE STAFF WERE VERY NICE AND FUNNY! FOOD WAS YUMMA-LICIOUS! WAS REJECTED IN PLAYING THE SCAVENGER HUNT, cause i am no longer a teen! :( walked the casino! first time allowed in. but didnt play cause i had no money :( the air was really salty and cold! my hair was like knotting up every 5 secs. didnt bring my shampoo la. haha. the cruise need to invest in bigger shower heads so more water would come out of it! i took like 45 mins just to bathe! other then that, the cruise didnt have alot of fun activities for 18 and over. hahaha. all for the teens. got kicked out of a night club cause apparently the policy says no one under 18. and my brother and sarah was there, so had to leave!
malaysian's taxi drivers a crazy drivers! they drive like the own the roads! omg. super fast and the roads are all very bumpy!
okay. shall upload photos now. lazy to blog! dont have much photos thou. cause my handphone died on the first day. and i didnt bring a charger! haha.

thats all the pictures i got! post more when my daddy uploads his from his camera!

2009-12-15T14:52:00.002+08:00

staying at home mostly everyday is horrible. sick to the bone.
yesterday i went to watch planet 51! awesome movie! thou i want to watch alvin and the chipmunks 2! and the jackie chan movie! haha.

this friday i am finally going for the cruise thingy. will be bringing my laptop thou. hopping that i will get some form of internet on board! well, i can hope cant i?
later going over to the post office to mail out my host Christmas present! mom say must mail out early not will get stuck in the Christmas jam! haha.
well, these days have been really boring. did nothing much other then staying at home and rot. haha. shall end the boring post here. tata~

just talking to you in the simplest way,
totally makes everything better.
there's still a little bit of hope left
that everything will go back to how its like before.

2009-12-11T02:50:00.007+08:00

cant get enough of this drama! (you're beautiful)

its like one of the hottest kdrama now in korea! haha. on par with another drama. even hotter then boys over flowers! i like the stuff toy thou! haha. its a dwejitokki! a pig rabbit! haha.

today went over to school with dasiree to do her submission of the grade E stuff. seriously los. NAFA is really a eat money school! which school makes students retake a certain module and have to pay a fee of 300 dollars!? and if you get a grade E for any subjects and want to make the grade to a D, you have to pay 30 bucks just to see the teacher to get more assignments! wth? thank god i didnt fail or get any grade E los. i then dont want to pay so much money. already so poor, pay more later eat grass for the rest of the month los. finally went shopping after that. bought a few stuff. still haven found school clothes yet. need the job first then can do more shopping. sian. this is what its like to be poor. how i wish i was rich or everything was free! haha

okay. now i am just bored and ranting. urgh. cant get to sleep... tomorrow i have to do cleaning again! but at least i am paid to do so! hehe! okay. shall stop my nonsense. byebye!

think about you everyday.
dream about you everynight.
i cant wait to be busy,
cause thats the only way you wont be on my mind.

2009-12-08T05:28:00.002+08:00

take me back. to where everything was how i want it to be.
i miss everything.
i missed japan.
i missed studying in school.
most of all, i missed you.

2009-12-08T02:43:00.002+08:00

LOL! CHECK OUT THIS CHEESY AND FUNNY PICK UP LINES!

I feel like a Indiana Jones, because you are the treasure I am looking for.

Are you an alarm clock? You managed to wake up my sleeping heart.

Are you a pokemon? Because I CHOOSE YOU!

Hey, Miss… Can you please catch it? My heart, it’s falling!

Is your father an alien, ’cause you’re out of this world.

If i were peter pan, you would be my happy thought.

Is your father a terrorist? Because you’re ‘the bomb’.

If you were a booger, I’d pick you first!

You’re like my dandruff, I cant get you out of my head.

My love for you is like diarrhea, I can’t hold it in!

Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?

Did you know, I had to borrow my friend’s heart yesterday because you stole mine.

LOL!

2009-12-05T01:14:00.002+08:00

went out with japan people today.
day was still as fun and enjoyable as last year.
ate at shokudo. food there are pretty expensive! haha. but it was quite yummy! haha.
walked the roads of orchard for a while after that, saw this frecking tranny! haha. she/he/shim was like strutting outside heeren, and was like chatting up guys for services! haha. super frecky okay. we just kept staring and like looking at what "she" was doing. she was practically walking to random people, and talking to them. i think "she" realised we were staring and "she" was like walk faster la, you guys are not better looking then me. and i tell you, "she" wasnt that goodlooking either! plastic boobs, and fake bum! she look really eeerie! haha. and we were all so scared of her/him like after she said that to us. haha. we kept on looking behind to see if she was following us. haha. creepy eh. haha. walked tangs till like 11, then headed home.

great day overall. haha.

tomorrow will be going to the flea markets with sis. i need to do some shopping. sunday might be going prawnning with cousins, to celebrate the young cousins's birthday. how fun! haha. anyways, december is going to be a fast month. sooner or later it will be january!

2010, what would it be like? haha. cant wait for the new year thou. new year, new beginning. new school term. :)

alrights, shall stop blabbing. haha. goodnight!

2009-12-03T05:18:00.001+08:00

why are you so hard to forget.
why are you constantly on my mind.
when it feels that i am letting you go, the feeling returns.
why you?

2009-12-02T15:53:00.001+08:00

LOL! this is insane!

2009-12-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

It’s amazing how you realize when you lose someone, you get mad at yourself for not saying the things that you couldve a million times. You take for granted the days spent doing nothing, when you couldve been with them. Anyone can be taken at any time in our lives but we always wait until theyre gone to say the things we never had the courage to before. & sometimes, we just don't realize what we have until we lost it.

(via leonyisninjaa)

2009-11-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

WATCHED NEW MOOOONN TODAY! :)
well, church thingy in the morning, quite boring! haha. after that went to plaza sing to get some scapebook materials! haha. holidays are boring like mad! like really boring! nothing to do at all.
going to start making my christmas presents tomorrow or something! haha. so excited!
finally decided to go develop the genting photos. haha. can collect it on tuesday! yay. cant wait to view them. hope they are niceee!

there is like nothing to blog about these days! so boring! haha. this friday is going to be so much fun! haha. going to eat with LJ people! haha! JAP FOOOOOOD!!! yum yum!
i just heard that my results are going to come out next week! OMG OMG! NEXT WEEK! so scared sia!!!! what if i fail? omg. i need to pass sia. dont want to take elective modules laaaa!!
haha! okay, shall not bother about that for now. haha. back to watching csi! :)
tata!

i feel like giving up hope.

2009-11-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

"And I sat there, staring at you, staring at me,
and the only thing I could think of was how much I never wanted this feeling to go away."

— JoAnne Golden

2009-11-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

i have awesome hair now! haha.

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CHECK IT OUT!

teehee!

2009-11-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

"When you feel like giving up,
just remember why you held on so long in the first place."

2009-11-25T23:16:00.001+08:00

"I know I'm not easy to love but could you try anyway?"

2009-11-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

"It's just a lot easier to say I don't love him anymore,
than to explain all the reasons why I still do."

2009-11-25T22:44:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK! hehe!
shall summarize my whole trip! :)
well, the trip was short, bus rides were long. felt like puking cause i forgot my medicine.
FOOD WAS EXTREMELY YUMMY! SHOPPING WAS horrible. WEATHER WAS HORRIBLE. wasted money on theme park! all in all, i think i gained WEIGHT! hehe. cause all i did was eat and sleep! awesome right!

well, would rather go to KL or something next time, cause i wouldnt want to sit the bus all the way up the hill for 1 hour again! well, i miss using my laptop, feel so disconnected with the world, cause i dont have a phone and no connection outside of genting. haha. what would i do without internet or my phone.

next trip would be on the cruise to penang. then again have to eat and eat. this time i will bring my laptop! gahh! alrights. thats all, i shall go rest! hehe. nighty night!

missed you hell loads.

2009-11-22T21:07:00.000+08:00

"Why is it that when you miss somebody so much that your heart is ready to disintegrate, you always hear the saddest song ever on the radio?"

— The adventures of Pete and Pete

2009-11-22T20:57:00.005+08:00

the picture tells it all

finally settle and checked everything i needed for my trip. all packed and ready to go! not sure if i am able to sleep at all tonight but who cares right. i would be having a long bus ride!

OH! just remembered, forgot my motion sickness pills!

anyways, thou its like a short trip, just hope it gets my mind off things and i will be able to enjoy it! brought 2 rolls of films for random and crazy pictures! hehe! hope to use them all up! alright. shall stop blogging here. i am going to watch CSI! lol. goodnight and see you on wednesday!

i'll miss you.

2009-11-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

If you want to hear why I love you; I can go on all night.

— One Tree Hill

2009-11-22T20:55:00.000+08:00

Now I don’t like using words like forever, but I will love you til the end of the day. And in the morning when I remember everything that you are, I know I’ll fall for you all over again.

— Unknown

2009-11-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

And when I asked you how you’d been I meant I missed you more than I’ve ever missed anything before.

— I Wrote This For You

2009-11-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

because for me, it’s always been you. always. and i’ve tried to fight it and i’ve tried to deny it. but i can’t — you’re undeniable.

— Seth Cohen

2009-11-22T20:53:00.001+08:00

I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want…a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved.

— Shana Abe

2009-11-22T20:52:00.001+08:00

We’re like peanut butter and jelly, ice-cream and cones - Thats what I think whenever I think of us - Inseparable.

— The sweetest thing

2009-11-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

"I can’t justify looking for someone else to love knowing you exist. If I was surrounded by everyone in the world, I’d still be lonely without you right in front of me.
No matter where I’m at or who I’m with, I will only ever need you."

— Boy Meets Love

2009-11-22T20:50:00.001+08:00

"You are every reason, every hope & every dream, I’ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And, my darling, you will always be mine."

— The Notebook

2009-11-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.

— Paulo Coelho

2009-11-21T20:16:00.001+08:00

"I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me."

— (via krishanu)

2009-11-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

Look what you’ve done. You came into my life like a whirlwind, swept me off my feet, and left me dangling, wanting more. More of you, more of your everything. Whatever am i gonna do without you?

2009-11-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

I’d love nothing more to grab you by the hand,
run into the sunset,
and disappear with you just so you could have me to yourself forever.

2009-11-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

"When I see you, the world stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops, and it is a beautiful place, and there is only you. Just you and my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it but I don’t like it. I Just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you."

— James Frey, A Million Little Pieces

2009-11-21T18:54:00.001+08:00

"Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I’m forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me."

— Chasing Amy

2009-11-21T17:37:00.001+08:00

" The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long"

2009-11-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

"Because you can never go from going out to being friends, just like that. It’s a lie. It’s just something that people say they’ll do to take the permanence out of a breakup. And someone always takes it to mean more than it does, and then is hurt even more when, inevitably, said ‘friendly’ relationship is still a major step down from the previous relationship, and it’s like breaking up all over again. But messier."

— Sarah Dessen

2009-11-21T01:49:00.002+08:00

me being stupid happened

today went to watch my girlfriend is an agent with hanna! omg. that show i practically laughed my ass off! its a really good show! haha. had hanna's mac and cheese, which was REALLLY YUMMY! haha. after that i went to the airport to fetch me daddy. haha. he bought for me corn soup! hehe. but not those in the vending machines kind. there were in those cup noodles cup! haha. really cute!

anyways, today is just plain boring! haha. tomorrow will be like thinking of stuff to do and maybe packing up for my genting trip. okay. shall stop blogging. nothing much to blog about anyways. byebye!

what are we?

2009-11-20T00:08:00.002+08:00

because all i want is you

BORING DAY I MUST SAY!

woke up at around 2 plus? 16 hours of sleep surely helped bring back all the sleep i needed during the assessment days. haha. well, practically did nothing the whole day. except making attempts to cook. haha! well, i must say i can never be a good cook! how can someone burn steam eggs?! like seriously, its just put water in the pot together with the egg and steam! and yet i am able to burn the bottom of the bowl, and the bottom of the eggs! haha. well, guess i didnt add enough water. haha.

well, will be out tomorrow with hanna, she is cooking me mac and cheeeeeeseeee!! yumyum! just hope i can wake up tomorrow. night time probably going to the airport to fetch my dad! haha. he bought CORN SOUP! oooohhhh! haha. he said he bought it from the supermarket, just hope its the right one! hehe.

i need to find a job or something to do at home. its really boring. haha.
ohohoh! my next sem's timtable is out. it sucks i tell you! like really sucks! i have school everyday, and i my class is the only class with night lessons! how sucky is that! but luckily we have only one lesson everyday xcept for wed. so means more time to finish up assessments. haha. and i dont have hayati next sem! woohoo! haha. but i still have theory and history. haha. cant wait for my sem results to be out. hope i didnt fail any not i have to go back in december for retake! well, thats about all, going to sleep soon, gotta wake up early tomorrow. gooodnight!

i have fallen hopelessly in love with you

2009-11-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

its all i need to know

2009-11-19T23:53:00.001+08:00

"As much as I enjoy the concept of being “just friends,” in reality, it’s a bizarre form of torture."

— Dawson’s Creek

2009-11-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

"The truth is, sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it."

2009-11-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

"You can erase someone from your mind.
Getting them out of your heart is another story."

— Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

2009-11-18T21:39:00.003+08:00

you hold the key to my heart

ITS OVER! now sing hallelujiah!
like finally!

all those late nights, sleepless nights, getting uhu glue all over my hands, those days are over for 2 months! i am just going to relax, relax and maybe work if i find a job. haha. but all i can think now is RELAX! haha. today was like the most slackish day and also the most tiring day. slackish maybe cause there was really nothing left to do. tiring day maybe cause its like the last day of everything, and finally am able to rest! rushed to the student lounge right after submission to get the comfortable spaces! haha. ended up on a giant beanbag with 4 other people! awesome right! haha. my class was like practically hogging up all the sofas, pillows and beanbags! haha. but that was great! haha. everyone finally got their sleep for like 6 hours! haha. well, i only slept for 4 hours. but its all good! haha.

today signed up for some student ambassadors for NAFA open house next year . awesome right! haha. but i only joined cause it could be fun together with all my friends! Lol.
well, now the holidays are here, i am bored shitless. thinking of asking my brother for all his shows to go watch! haha. not sure what should i do tomorrow thou. i think i should probably pack my room and stuff around the floor! haha. rooms a mess as usual!
okay, end of major rants. i want to catch so many movies! i want to watch 2010!!!!!!

i miss you;

2009-11-17T22:25:00.002+08:00

i am tired.
tired in every way.
tired physically, tired emotionally.
these few night, my sleep is way off. sleeping till early morning and wake up to do work. my whole body is frecking tensed up. sleeping on the floor and curled up in the small arm chair in school today just made it worst. my whole body is aching.
today assessment went fine. i think. brochure got taken away to keep by the school. so not going to get that back, other then that i get to keep them for future references. hanged out in the student lounge after breakfast, fell asleep on the floor, then the chairs were free, so shifted there instead. collect work and went home. today all i am left to do is just to write my story board and i am done for the day.

tomorrow is my last assessment, model making and ceramics. well, ceramics is going to be easy i think! haha. cause we didn't really need to do much then to just make 2 pots and bring them tomorrow. model making is the one scaring me cause my trees arent really cooperating now. they keep falling over. going to add more uhu glu later on so hope it sticks!

after tomorrow i am finally stress free. well, not completely, but close enough. means i will be able to sleep as long as i like without worrying about what i have to complete! but, during the begining of decemeber i have to worry cause of my results! huhu~
friday going to catch a movie with hanna. then next monday i am off to genting! cant wait.

okay shall stop here and go write my story board. hehe. tata!

you wont talk to me if i dont talk to you right?
everything seems very distant.
i dont understand you anymore.
how badly i wish things wasnt like this.
:(

2009-11-17T05:41:00.002+08:00

today school was hell! okay, it was yesterday, since now its 5.45am. well. didnt sleep the entire night yesterday. due to unfinished work. went to school feeling all sick and sloppy. rushed to get some printing done at some shop near laselle. which was very lousy okay! wasted my money there. but no choice cause no other shops was opened.

after submitting all my works, went to do binding for my brochure. then went to macs cause dasiree wanted to eat. sat there and sleep like for about 30 mins. then decided to go back to school to the student lounge to sleep. went there, was crowded, found a small corner to sleep. slept for like 2 plus hours on the stupid floor, then went to collect works and then went home.

came home, immediately went to sleep. was supposed to wake up at like 2am to do my work, but ended up waking up at 3.45 instead. rushed cutting and last minute filing, and i am done for the day! cant go back to sleep now thou. cause i only left with an hour plus before i have to wake up and go to school! might go sleep in the lounge again later after submission! :)

major :(

2009-11-17T05:40:00.001+08:00

"After all the broken hearts,
I’ve finally figured out the problem.
I fall in love a little too late.
I guard my heart like some kind of castle.
I don’t let them in when they want.
I wait until they’re long gone,
then I realize you are the one I wanted all along."

2009-11-16T04:10:00.000+08:00

SICK :(

2009-11-16T03:29:00.001+08:00

I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

2009-11-16T03:27:00.000+08:00

"Loving him was the best thing yet
and missing him is something I’ll never regret.
Losing him was hard to accept
but seeing him with her is the most painful yet."

- (via runwaytrain)

2009-11-16T03:26:00.000+08:00

Boy: What should i do?
Girl: Follow your heart.
Boy: What do you think my heart says?
Girl: I don't know... I'm not your heart.
Boy: Well, you're most of it.

- (via runwaytrain)

2009-11-16T03:22:00.002+08:00

"Love is seeing him how no one else does. Love is when you know he’s not perfect but you see him perfectly. Love is thinking about him day and night. Love is when he means the world to you. Love is when no one else knows how you feel. Love is the best feeling you can feel."
— (via runawaytrain)

2009-11-16T01:22:00.002+08:00

I FEEL LIKE SHIT!
screw datelines.

i don't know what else i should do or feel anymore.
what i have been feeling for the past few months, that i am sure.
i know that i love you, and still feel the same way about it.
for like the past few months has been really dull. we didn't talk at all!
and for that like 5-7 mins that you actually did talked to me, i was grinning like an idiot.
then i thought, that was probably a one time thing, and we wouldn't talk again.

you know, i was planning on asking you out after i get back from genting.
that's why i put up those questions on my blog.

i really dont know what to do right now. i dont know what to talk to you about.
what should i do?

2009-11-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

"It’s all just magic when I think about you."
— Roswell

2009-11-15T01:45:00.002+08:00

“When you’re dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part”

— Dreaming with a broken heart, John Mayer

2009-11-14T20:40:00.003+08:00

i love you, more then you can ever imagine.

Today i have to sleep as early as possible. gotta be up bright and early for church tomorrow. gotta help mom with the tau suan and stuff. hehe. tomorrow night dad's going to japan. :(
why is everyone going to Japan except for me! i want to go... never mind. next year i am going to ask my mom to take me with them when they go! teehee! i want my corn soup. asking my daddy to help me get from the japan's vending machines. :)

next week marks the start of my assessment. also marks the days of my holidays are starting soon! this morning or afternoon, the rents kept saying my landscape model dont look like a kampung area! and ask me to build chairs and tables and walk way for my house! omg. i dont know how to explain to them that its not needed, and they kept telling me say that do work must give 100% and stuff! omgg i have already put in like 4 days into this stupid model, and i am sure i have put in 100% into it.

and today afternoon i had to rush up a CD cover for botak's assessment. like seriously man. no one said we need to do a 2nd piece. even botak didnt say anything. but every other class is doing it only our class didnt do and its like 20% of our marks! seriously man. so last minute and stuff la. but lucky i am done already. now left with the stupid report which is really confusing to write! going to work on that then do other stuff already.

alrights back to doing the stupid report! my head feels like its going to burst! :(

am i rushing or pushing things too far?
i ran out of stuff to talk to you about. :(

2009-11-14T02:46:00.000+08:00

this is really cute!

2009-11-14T01:29:00.002+08:00

if i asked you to go out, will you say yes?
if i told you how much i missed you, what would your reply be?
if i asked you if we had another chance, would would the answer be?

by the end of this year.
baby steps i tell myself.
i shouldnt rush into anything.
i dont even know if what i am feeling is the same as what you are feeling.
i cant help to feel that what i am hoping for is too much.
i am so confused.

2009-11-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

that's all i ever wish for.

the weather is killing me! starting to have a really bad cold and stomachache on and off. i am sure the fever is going to come soon. sucks i tell you. holiday being so close and stuff, and i am like falling sick. i am like going to make sure i sleep the sickness off when all this is over! this week is coming to an end. and next week is going to be hell! gotta carry boxes of this and that for assessments. i neeeeeeeed transport! probably get a taxi on those days. urghh. spend money again. i really should take up driving.

well, i am almost done with my landscape model! which i must say.. LOOKS LIKE CRAP! the rents were like telling me kampong dont look like that! the trees are all not proportional, and the house is not suppose to have a FLAT roof! haha. so i am going to make the roof pointy! awesome right. then after that i am left with botak's report which i have no idea what to write about what and final touches to sinaga's and david tan's work and i am done for sem 1!

cant wait for the week after next! i am going to make plans! haha. just hope the person i am going to make plans with is able to go out. :)

alrighty. back to making my roof!

do you feel the same way that i do?

Hold me in your arms
'Cause I'm falling
Hold me in your arms
While we're sleeping
Hold me in your arms

2009-11-13T04:34:00.001+08:00

today is friday the 13th!
AWESOME!

2009-11-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

i am in my happy mood! :)
today i spend the rest of my money on printing and buying art materials. totally sucks. need to go claim back not i will be poor the whole week.

I HAVE FOUND OUT HOW TO MAKE A TREE! now is, how to make leaves for my botak tree!
going to try to finish up most of it by today. very very sleepy!

how much i missed talking to you
:)

2009-11-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

today was afternoon was really unproductive. haha. i just sat in bed doing nothing but staring at the laptop and watching KYLE XY. awesome show, sadly it was discontinued after i think season 3 a few eps. haha. well, night time was better thou. haha. i finished up my window display and currently working on my brochure. haha. tomorrow will be traveling down to bugis JUST to get it binded and one camera reprinted! haha. going to get styrofoam too for my landscape model. haha.

this week is going to be a busy week. rushing all my homework.
left with my landscape model, check on the drawing works, re arrange files, do loads of write ups. thats about it. haha.

next week is going to be a GREAT week! movie plans with hanna. going to watch the korean movie. something agent one. haha. plus sunday going to bird park with victor, grace, and hanna, probably vicson too. i want to visit the zoo thou. :)

cant wait till i go to genting. need retail therapy. haha. getting sick of siting in my room and stare and the yellow walls, stupid floor and all the masking tape and uhu glue! alights. nothing much to blog about today. blog tomorrow if i am in a good mood! :):)

why am i getting so nervous.
its just 2/3 letters.
and i cant do it. i have to like be super calm.
pray i wont freck out tomorrow.
:/

2009-11-11T01:11:00.001+08:00

will talk to you soon.

2009-11-10T21:38:00.002+08:00

school today was a waste of time i tell you. went to school for like 15 mins?
and i spend like a lot of money today just for my projects. tomorrow till friday i am going to be stuck at home trying to finish up my model making. which is going to be life-less! must finish up my work so i wont drag it till the weekends!

thinking what i should do tonight. should i continue with my projects or just watch my shows. haha. i think i should do my project. put the shows till friday then watch. or should i just go and sleep. very sleepy thou. only slept for 5 hours yesterday. cant decide. haha.

never mind of my crapping. just 1 more week to endure all this late nights and i am freeee~~ :)

i am frecking out.
i have no idea what to say.
:/

2009-11-10T01:21:00.003+08:00

fruit loops, illustrator, itunes.
can my life get any more boring?
wait, fruit loops isnt boring. illustrator is.
i wonder how people get things done so well using illustrator! mine just looks like crap!

i seriously cant wait till next week is over!
then i dont have to worry about using up my uhu glue, or what projects i need to finish. i can just enjoy and holidays and watch videos all day long. next week is going to be a good week! i think. next week going to the bird park! haha. want to go to the zoo thou. last time i went there was like 2 years back? seems so long.

anyways. back to my homework. i need more ideas on what text to put on my poster!

i going to give it till the end of december.
this has gone on long enough,
i need to move on if i no that there isnt any chance left.

till the end of december.
1st jan a new beginning.

you will always have a place in my heart.

2009-11-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

MY HEADACHE IS KILLING ME!
feel like banging it on the wall just to make it go awayy :(

2009-11-06T01:44:00.004+08:00

what do i do.
i need answers.
i tried getting over you. tried getting you out of my head. well, it did work, but only when i was super busy with my homework and had no time to think about any other things. but every time i stop doing my homework or just sit around, every thought just come flooding back in my head.

maybe i need to be a workaholic. that is the seems to be the only way that works now

i want to move on, i need to move on. i just don't know how.
if all this hadn't happened. i wouldn't be stressing over all this.
but if all that didn't happen, i wont know what its like to be in love.

2009-11-05T16:13:00.003+08:00

can you believe it? today marks the end of term 2! sem 1 over!
usually, on situations like this during secondary school, i would be like going to malls, watching movies and stuff. but when school ended today, all i could think of is sleep? how badly i needed it. i am thinking of sleeping my day away today and tomorrow, just so the eye bags would disappear! i need to go do more shopping too.
yesterday only managed to buy 1 top. haha. shall go get more when i go to genting or when i get back. haha. next week would be rushing up model making homework and settling all the file, arranging them in order. and final changes to digital work. seriously cant wait for the assessment to be over! then i can fully enjoy my holidays in peace!

okay, i think i shall go sleep awhile. my eyes are closing as i am typing this.

2009-11-04T02:55:00.003+08:00

thursday would be my last day of sem 1! thank god!
school had been fun, but i need my holiday asap!
today finished up all the drawing homework. so during the 1 week i do not need to touch the drawings at all! yay! just hope i can get a pass for sinaga's work, as mostly all my work are Cs! dont feel like redoing any, as i dont have the time or the patience to do so. shall just buck up during sem 2!

i am left with all the digital homework, which sucks equally! as my illustrator is like horrible! but i am mostly done for all 3 digital homework so i guess i am can say quite safe? haha. just need a yes/no from the lecturers and i am good to go print! next whole week is going to be only for model making! tree making and window display. how exciting- not! then the following week would be assessment, and then i am a free bird! then would be sleep, sleep, more sleep and a little of work to pay off shopping trips to art friend next year!

okay, currently dead sleepy! i cant finish hayati's work by tonight i wont be able to sleep! tomorrow going to meet dasiree at orchard to go art friend, then to bugis to do printing, then back home to do a little but of model making. going to be a long day tmr or should i say later.

shall stop here and continue thinking of what to type!

goodnight!

i fell in love with the same person 2 years back,
this time its different. he doesnt feel like same.

2009-10-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

illustrator is giving me so many problems!
my stomach is also giving me problems! URGHHH

i shall go make bread to eat solve the stomach problem.

some one teach me illustratorrrr! :(((

2009-10-29T01:07:00.002+08:00

just 1 more week of school before my tutorial break starts. really cant wait for that week to arrive. i need a break. this is really killing me slowly..
i might need to change specs soon. from staring at the laptop almost 24/7. my degree is bound to increase.. my back is aching from siting in the stupid chair. and of course, my eyebags! they are getting darker and darker.

things i got to finish by next week:

Hayati's project, assessment is next thursday! kill me now.
Sinaga's work, landscape drawing, staircase, recolour bedroom, and 1 point drawing. :(
David tan's bedroom drawing on tracing paper, jewellery drawing, and title block.
botak's poster on the number 12. have a draft of the business card and poster.
marianne's brochure print out, and draft of poster

things to finish by tutorial break

MODEL MAKING LANDSCAPE and WINDOW DISPLAY! back to making trees and more trees. what's up with nafa's lecturers and trees! gosh!

so much homework to be done this week, friday going out with a few of the LJ people. supposed to go to night safari but changed to sentosa cause jovy's working there as a ghost, then changed to movie! at least i am going out. which would be great.

and and and.. white sands just turn slightly cooler! haha. its opening a cotton on store there! YAY! haha. alrights, shall stop here and continue drawing and thinking.

so sleepy.. :(

2009-10-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY! MY NAME IS BABARELLA!

1 MORE WEEK TO GO!

OMG CANT WAIT! hahaha!

2009-10-26T23:36:00.003+08:00

Code	Name	Status	Absent Without Approval	Total Session
TD1105	2D Fundamentals	Registered	0	14
TD1106	3D Theory & History 1	Registered	3	14
TD1103	3D Workshop & Model Making	Registered	1	14
TD1104	Digital Art & Design	Registered	0	14
TD1101	Drawing Fundamentals	Registered	0	14
TD1000	Singapore Arts Scene - 3D Design	Registered	0	7
TD1102	Technical Drawing	Registered	0	13
FA1075	Introduction to Ceramics	Registered	1	12

CHECK IT OUT! hahaha.
i have missed 3 theory lessons, 1 model making and 1 ceramics(but today makes it 2!) hahah. well done man. thank god i am still able to take assessment. haha

anyways didnt go ceremics today. went over to ikea and amk hub instead. haha. ikea with das and her friend. went crazy there. hahaa. amk to buy my photoshop. haha. so expensive la. 165 just fly away. haha. but finally i have my photoshop. hehe.
tomorrow has horrible sinaga and botak's lesson. die die die! hahah.
okay. off to do more homework before i go sleep. so tired!

2009-10-26T02:35:00.002+08:00

i am feeling like shit now.
my eyes are hurting like mad. tomorrow class is going to be an extreme killer!
technical drawing and ceramics. i am definitely dreading ceramics. but have already skipped last week, so this week must go. will have to visit the all almighty art ~~friend~~not so friendly too.
i have to get so much stuff. like my photoshop premium, more tracing paper for technical drawing, Styrofoam, green wires for my trees. just so much to buy, so little money. hahhaa.

well. i have only just finish drawing the shelves for my exhibition drawings. i dont think i will redo any of sinaga's work due to the fact that i am just going to get a C average for his class. now i just need to do well for botak, hayati, technical drawing and model making and i think i can get kinda of a good grade? haha. cross fingers and hope all the late nights, eye bags and lack of sleep will be paid off.

okay, tmr class starts at 9, and its currently 2.43am. guess i am going to sleep real soon. and tmr i will be hell of a grouch! haha.

I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I will be strong
I will be faithful,
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning,
A reason for living,
A deeper meaning, yeah.

2009-10-24T15:44:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh! i so totally want to live in Indonesia! haha!
everything is so cheap there! like everything! haha.
if you go there with about 500 sing, you are counted damn rich?!
and the frecking blackberry there is like 600 plus without contract! I WANT!!! going to save/work what ever and ask stefy to help me buy when she goes back to indonesia in may/june next year! totally awesome! haha.

today class was a waste of time! like seriously! half my class didnt go. probably sleeping.. haha. the other class also not many turned up. haha. so it was really small. and i was so sleepy in class trying to keep myself awake thru the whole 2 hours! by next week gotta get everything done like 90% done for hayati's lesson, not marks will be deducted!
well, after school, i decided to take the bus 12 home! what a decision! it was the longest, uncomfortable and horrible ride i have ever taken besides a boat. haha. it was so hard to sleep, and it took me 1 hour and 15 mins to reach home! 1 hr and 15 mins! i should have taken the stupid train instead.

now back home, dont think i will be doing any homework till at night. shall go sleep a bit more. haha.

what should i do?

2009-10-24T01:28:00.002+08:00

some one buy me a kindle 2!
i want one. it looks so pretty! haha.
its slim! white, portable! and definitely a damn good investment! going to try psycho my parents to get it for me. hahah. thou the ebooks would cost alot. but its so pretty! haha. its a must have!

2009-10-23T17:35:00.003+08:00

i just set my eye on a new phone! haha.
okay, its not exactly new, it has been out a long time and alot of people has it. hahaha.
but i think i would save up my money for 1 year and then i would just buy the phone alone without changing or renewing my plan. haha.

wanna get that phone. blackberry bold 9000. haha. shall start saving next year. haha! cause this years savings will be gone in December when i go down to genting with dasiree! haha.

2009-10-23T16:23:00.001+08:00

From the bottom of my broken heart by Britney spears

Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind, where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you know?
Still I miss you somehow

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

Baby I said please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
We could've worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart through my dreams, through my heart
And I'm back where I started again, yeah
Never thought it would end

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear, yeah
Still I wish you were here now

From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two (A thing or two) you gotta know (you gotta know)
(You were my first love) You were my first love, you were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new (You're my real love)
You were my real love, I never knew love
Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart

Never look back we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?

2009-10-23T02:43:00.005+08:00

just wondering..

have you moved on?

is it really that simple to move on.

why is this happening?

why you?

this has never happened that i cant get you out of my head.

everything i do, brings back memories be it good or bad.

i really wish my head as a vault or something that i can store all my memories and emotions there and leave it there.

it hurts to think about what i said.

it seriously sucks.

i wished i stayed.

i wished it was different.

telling myself, regretting now isnt going to change anything, and to get over it. seems like it dont work that way.

what do i do?

2009-10-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

okay. i think i am going to start poppin' out white hairs soon and my eye bags are going to get darker and darker till i turn into a human panda!
school is definitely getting worst every week. cause every week puts us closer to the assessment dates and everyone is frecking out. okay, maybe not everyone. i am definitely frecking out. there are like so much work to do.. from history and theory to photoshop to drawings. this last 2/3 weeks arent enough to finish everything up to standard. just hoping to pass all my subs so i wont have to retake any of them during the december holidays. which would suck like hell!

homework to complete in 2/3 weeks:
-Technical drawing
-sinaga's work, which is my exhibition drawing and landscape and practically 1/4 of the other works i have to redraw.
-poster in A2 size on the topic 12 and a business card.
-brochure and poster for photoshop class.
-2 A2 boards filled with research and drawings for history and theory
- enviromental model and my window display for model making class.

thats mostly it. have to continue doing hayati's work cause she wants to see like 9/10 of it done by this saturday and i am only at like 2/10? haha.
thank god i dont have school tomorrow not i will be sleeping in class. haha.

oh. and i gotta buy my adobe web premium soon.. my trail versions are running out of days! dang.. haha. alrights. back to doing hayati's work.

giving up and moving on isnt easy.
trying to talk my way out of why i should give up,
but there never seem to be a good reason to.
give me a reason.

everything is just too painful to handle.
stress and all is overbearing.
dont really know how long i am able to keep it up.

PICTURE POST 2

2009-10-23T00:38:00.002+08:00

Location: photoshop class!

2009-10-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

school today was tiring.. today is the last lesson for model making.. mean for the next 2 weeks till assessment i dont have school wednesdays! whoopie doo! school work is start to pile up even thou the lecturers are not giving anymore. got to like redraw like 1/2 of sinaga's work! stupid la.. give me so many Cs.. haha. gotta start doing botaks project soon. school's been the same o same o. getting worst everyday. just thinking that for another 4 weeks and i will be off on break!

GENTING HERE I COME! haha! cant wait cant wait!

alrights. shall go get started with hayati's homework.. this week have to suffer 2 lessons from hayati.. i have already skipped 2 lessons of hers, so i cant skip this saturday. screw it.. :(

tomorrow is wear black day! damn it.. no black! haha. shall go raid my cupboard later for something black.. haha.

i miss you,
i miss having you around
i miss holding you.

PICTURE POST 1

2009-10-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

location: 2D fundermentals :)

BACK TO BLOGGER!

2009-10-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

how awesome is that? haha. okay, ditching my livejournal cause it starting to be boring. not that i hate using livejournal. just lazy to blog there. haha. okay.. so anyways. this is going to be my first post! pictures will be up later on! haha.